Diary of a Black girl

" Queen, you deserve the title but she rejects what I give, while she nurse the wounds by them.
Tried them, didnt work, got impossible standards. Nothing Ima do is gone work.
Diary of a Black Girl.

Wife, you deserve the label but, youve been hurt before so you sore and dont feel you able.
Tried them, didnt work, got impossible standards. Nothing that I ever do work.
Diary of a Black girl."


I havent heard this song in a minute and I must say I its was lik bitter sweet as I heard it. Its lik everything I'm feeling right now yet Im so angry at myself that some one has made me lock away my heart this way. Never would I have thought Id be like this.. Turning (good)guys down for no reason, avoiding making friends of the opposite sex(prevention is better than cure.. i tell my self lol) i even go as far as setting them up with a friend or suggesting they'd be better suited *face palms*

This needs to stop!

Learning to let go.. believe it is a struggle. Still Believe.



                     Take care my Kittens
                               N

face time :-p

Besos

xoxox

N

sssshhhhwwweeet

kittys + choppas

lov these 2 :)

The Temper Trap - Sweet Disposition

Tribute to Amy

I was in Malawi when i heard the news. switched to BBC and there it was............... Amy dead :'-( i knew Britain was mourning. They lost such a wonderful young lady, the talent she had was immense. We can can say now that she lived, she was not fulfilled but she LIVED you know. She put her mark! No one will take that away from her and her family. They can be proud to have had her in their lives even for the short time they did.

My fav videos below :)

Amy Winehouse - Back to Black

Amy Winehouse - Tears Dry On Their Own Live

KING BEY

My beautiful lake :)

Its been ages goodness me..... i do apologise for the lack of activity :-/
I was away on holiday went to my Home countries* Malawi and Tanzania and I had an amazing time. I will do some posts and I thought it was only right I dedicate the first one to Our beautiful pride and joy Lake Malawi. with some pictures of me in a bikini.. (please dont mind the fat) I am currently making arrangements to join my local gym here in London. (no progress yet lol)

I was frozen Shriekage - lol i was pretty much done at that point

sun was setting. . super gorg forgot to capture it lol

And that was that night, the first! I went with my first cousin I love her to bits. We went to hang out by the beach after dinner and met two very interesting fellows there that had a little over enough to drink. They were very excited they met two girls on the beach and started what i would call "selling" themselves. Their conversation consisted of "oh we own this" "we've been here and there" "we studied at...." ... they had a lot going for them.. too bad they didnt have much going for them in the 'looks' department :/

We slept beautifully, our room was right next to the beach and the waves were very loud.. alittle too loud for my cousin but they very perfect for me as they contributed to the ambiance. I felt all warm and cozy under covers, it was alittle like being in a ship with waves crashing lol. It was one of the best nights of sleep i had on my holiday, my mother had appointed herself as my personal alarm clock :/ FML

the morning after the night before

how cute are my slippers?? gift from my lush buddy John from amber crombie :) i made great use of them on this holiday

my leti on the beach. 

this next few pictures speak for themselves

Thats it for that trip. We were in Salima Livinstonia beach resort. It was amazing. It was just what me and my cousin needed. We worked so hard and needed that 2 days away from the madness.

Love yu all

xoxox

N